Exhausted

There were many events happened last week! Starting with a sudden visit to Boonlay on Sunday (Thanks for the great services, Jess and Vera :p) I spent the other days doing something out from routine – which made my life felt much more colorful =)

On Monday, we had the weekly lunch together session, but with a new person joining us, a last year graduate from Germany – Markus. Thanks so much for all your experiences sharing! It will be very beneficial for us in a week to come =D

On Tuesday, we shopped at Fair Price for some household stuff + some ingredient for weekend curry rice… most probably my last cooking before going off… (I believe my flat mate will be very thankful to know that the suffering is finally came to the end)

On Wednesday, My supervisor invited me to join him for lunch… Once in a life time offer! We went to Gandhi, which is his favorite Indian restaurant at Little India. The food was nice there =D The restaurant was very unique! Once we’re there, the waiter put banana leaves in front of us – as the plate. Afterwards, there will be one waiter serving the rice, another serving the curry, another serving the vegetables, another for the snack, and another for the main dishes. The end product was very similar to Nasi Padang in Indonesia, but with a bit of different concept: other than the main dishes, the rest are free flow!! Wow. The first waiter kept spooning the rice for me, I was pretending to ignore him so that he put as much as possible, but it was my supervisor who asked him to stop in the end =.=’ There were 6 of us eating, and I finished only second to my supervisor. Hahaha =.=’ It was raining so hard when we leave… and since it’s hard to get a taxi, we eventually walked to MRT station. My shoes were so wet.. and at the end of the day, it breathed its last breathed.


Thanks for being with me for the last one year

On Thursday, I met Sylvia, my only hometown friend in SG! Hahaha… Finally - really finally - after 1 year of full of appointments and cancellations. Hahaha.. She didn’t changed a bit, still as pretty as usual. I was quite enchanted with her till the end of our meeting XP On my way back, Regine passed me the Fair Price vouchers! The vouchers that I have been waiting for a month! Fufufu… Pringles, I’m comiiing!!


@ Sylvia office. So envy of her dual lcd screen T_T

Friday was definitely the most tiring day of the week. There was so many events coming up, but I ended up picking only two of those: department bowling event and grad 08 drinking session. I was very touched to know that the bowling event was organized partly as our farewell gift. It was very well organized. Most of our bosses went back one hour earlier to prepare and bring their kids along =D We felt lack of motivation after the bosses left, and ended up slacked quite a bit until the clock stroked 6. We went for dinner at Cristal Jade before heading towards the American Club, where the bowling was held. Having no bowling experience before, I didn’t know that I should wear shorts instead of skirt T_T In the end, I played wearing skirt! I didn’t want to play initially, but knowing that it would ruin the atmosphere, I decided to go ahead. The end result was not bad… at least I got an excuse for being the worst player in my team =.=’ anyway, it was so kind of them to give me an award as the… “Most Entertaining Bowler”! hahaha T_T Thanks team, you’re the best.

After the bowling, we rushed to CQ for the drink session. The drink was started at 6.30, and we reached only at 11.30. Super late… Most of the graduates had went back as well T_T after around 1 hour of drinking, we took taxi together and went back.. I knocked off at 3 am…

… until 1pm on the following day! Hello! It was 10 hours sleep O.o So that’s how I spent half of my precious Saturday v_v. I felt quite dizzy waking up after such a long sleep. After lunch and some procrastination, I went to bugis junction to buy shoes and moisturizer, followed with a great dinner at Chijmes =D

Back from Chijmes, I welcomed the new laptop of my roomie for an hour, and then started to blog… and that’s how I ended my Saturday and started my Sunday.

My last weekend… please don’t pass so soon T_T
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Counting Down!

I just read through some of my older post... and realize that... Omigosh... all my August posts were full of grumbles! No wonder people keep poking me to see if I'm still alive XP

I'm alive, safe and sound. And I think I was exaggerating too much, my apology. Time to break the vicious circle and start a more colorful post from now on ^^

I'm going to London from training next week =] We have been told that there will be no internet connection at all.. not only at our apartment, but even in training place! Oh no T_T maybe I just stay at Starbucks for the free internet? hahaha...

The preparation is... hardly there. Earlier today, my boss asked about my accomodation there: where and how it looks like. I then realized that I dont even know how many people will be staying together with me T_T (...and haven't figured it out until now)

For my own record, I will be staying at:

3 Limeharbour
Canary Wharf
London
E14 9LS
United Kingdom

The pictures of the apartment seem to indicate that I will be sharing a room with other gal.. but have no idea so far who will it be ^^;

My weekend has been "great" this week... I went for some drinks with other GTO grads last weekend... and I confirmed that I dont like to drink! I agree that I need to at least drink to know my limit, but I can't survive the bitter taste... At that time, I really felt that Coke is the healthiest drinks among all.


See my red face and you will understand

Nevertheless, the companions were second to none :) Thanks to such a wonderful event, "organizing committe!" Looking forward to more events coming up next week!

iPhone is finally heree!!! I finally touch it!! XP
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Moving...?

No no, I'm not moving home again. haha.. This time, I am thinking of moving my blog to:

http://erlindiana.wordpress.com/

All the setup is done... But I'm still hesitating. The reason of my sudden decision are:
1. People kept telling me that Wordpress is better
2. Wordpress has the password-thingy.. which I might need as I start working life. Reading through my blog again, I realized that I have written some issues that might have hurt people in some ways. Taking this opportunity, I wanted to apologize.. Of course, I never mean to hurt anyone... T_T

However, I experienced that Wordpress loads pretty slow... and has no personalization capability... on top of those, what is the reason of posting something online if u want to protect it? The safest way is to keep it offline.

Will think through it again and see how thing goes. Any opinion will be highly appreciated! :p

Happy Birthday, Indonesia!!
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Second Chance?

This week, I have received a lot of encouragement… a lot… I felt happy… but I know that what come afterwards will be hard. Most, if not all, of what I endured, is my fault, my responsibility. My biggest fault is my lack of communication, the thought that people will understand me without the need for me to explain everything. Oh, how fool can it be?

In these 2 months, people have set their perception towards me. How I’m going to change their perception, is not known yet… but will definitely be harder. Opportunity didn’t come twice.. I have missed almost all of my first opportunity, and I know I have no one to blame but myself T_T

Anyway, these incidents are not without learning points, of course. I truly appreciate all the advices that come to me, and will work around all those points =] there are so many things that I want to work out towards a better me… but honestly, it is terribly hard to start… I feel so reluctant to start, even until now. To start is always the hardest part.. sigh! I need courage... give me courageeee ><

Some advices that stuck in my mind…

“If you see other is getting along well while you’re not, you should start to introspect yourself” – EL

“Managing expectation is important. Who do you think will be seen better – a person who promise delivery by today, but deliver tomorrow, or a person who promise next week, but deliver tomorrow?” - KP

I know those advices are true.. again, another “BUT”, it is just so hard for me to start talking openly, to present without worry, to question without feeling stupid, to stop being spoon feed and explore more by myself. I believe there is always a way though. There is a way whenever there is a will.

BTW... I haven't found my objective yet. I woke up every morning questioning why am I doing this. Horrible. Let me think for a moment... Let me think... *blank

Alright... That's all for today.

Study to work adaptation is truly not easy ^^;
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Thousand Splendid Suns

Finally finish the "Thousand Splendid Suns", another novel from Khaled Hosseini, the author of Kite Runner. My brainless comment? I felt exactly the same "background" between the first and second novel, the author simply wrote based from his view... too narrow IMHO. both of the novel is about Afghan, and both talk about running to other country such as US, which is sort of his own experiences.


Thousand Splendid Suns

I prefer Kite Runner, as it gave much more unexpected twists... with all its foreshadow events.. it adds the cool factor to that novel... whereas for the second novel.. I hardly feel anything. Too monotonous? Or maybe I take waayy too long too finish it? (almost 3 weeks) Or maybe because I always read it only when I'm sleepy? hahaha... I don't know. Maybe if I read this first before Kite Runner, I will feel that this is better.

Alright, so much about the novel... so much about Khaled Hosseini...

Takashor! =D
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Monday Blue Post

He asked me to draft an email…
He sacrificed his time to explain what to write…
He sacrificed his time trying to get me understand…
I cracked my head writing the email…
I submitted it to him…
He was disappointed…
He wanted me to improve it…
I asked why can’t like this, why can’t like that…
He explained why must like this why must like that…
In the end, I still didn’t understand and he was frustrated…
He sacrificed his time and my time…
And I didn’t see any benefit out from it.

Surprisingly, I suddenly felt that I was in the other ends 2 years ago.

I draft an email explaining what design to be done, I forced every subcommittee to submit a design, I chased them, I bugged them, in the end I didn’t feel really satisfied and did the whole thing by my own preferences. Now I believed that my subcommittee must have been cursing me all the way. Hahaha…

I felt very bad before I wrote this entry… but now I realize that it was not easy to be at the other end too… and I felt much better. Haha.. should appreciate him of having the patience in correcting my sentences (although I know that he was very frustrated and I felt real bad because of that) I wonder if there will be a day when he is satisfied with what I did and can fully give me the responsibility of contacting people… I wonder…

Back to my own experiences, there was no such thing T_T

Btw, I enjoyed the photo taking session on Sunday... Thanks to Fieda for lending me the convocation gown... and special thanks to Cipto for being our professional photographer! =D


@ Somewhere around Esplanade~

Cloudy weeks ahead,
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All Cried Out

This is the end of my fifth week working. This week is not a very good one… Thanks that the end isn’t as bad as the start.

On Tuesday, I cried at the office. I really shocked myself. I never thought that I will cry over job matters. But it just happens. I was scolded, I was being looked down, I was blamed, and I just can’t take it.

To give a short scenario of what happen:

B is my reporting boss
A is a partner of B
A asked for B approval to give me a task
B said OK
+++

A gave me the VB work
I told A I never do it before, but I would try my best
I asked for deadline
A said ASAP, but insisted not to specify when
I said OK
+++

B came to me
B (partly accused, partly) advised me to be tactful and not to so easily accept to help other people
B asked me to focus on B’s task
I am OKing again, and now I confused of which to be prioritized.
+++

The above scenario happened last week.

Afterwards, I focused on B task and learnt A requirement whenever possible. Since I understand that I don’t have much time to learn at office, I decided to use my weekend to learn more about VB.

That’s one of the reason that I was so hurt when A was accusing me of doing nothing, blamed me for her can’t meet the deadline, and looked down at me for being stupid of not understanding the requirements and too dumb to ask. Trust me; I was so mad at that time. Whom I was mad to, was a mix between A, B, and mostly myself. For being so reluctant to clarify the situation before it actually exploded. I cried at the toilet (=.=’’) for 15 minutes, then I concluded that I can’t just keep running away, and I went back to my desk, staring at my desktop pretending to do thing, though my thought wasn’t focused at all. My tears kept flowing down, I bet everyone saw it, but I just can care enough no more.

The crying incident happened at 3 pm. At 4 pm, I was meeting the graduate representatives. I didn’t know how bad has my eyes swollen, but I just really don’t care anymore. I leave office at 6.30… run all the way to meet my appointment time. 7pm at plaza singapore, only to get to the wrong train, and being pushed until can’t enter the train and needed to wait for another train… the day is really bad enough.

I reached at 7.15. I apologized… I have been waiting for the dinner for half year.. and this is how prepared I am. T__T

After the deadly Tuesday, things started to get better. I did OT on Wednesday to get the things (at least) half way done. I went back at 10.30.. tired but with a bit of relieved feeling. I am thankful at C, who has OT with me till that time (not sure to accompany me or because really have lots of things to do also) and forced me to take a cab and helped me to claim. Haha..

On Thursday, I have a great dinner with my flatmates. Too bad that it was raining heavily when we went back, and we’re buying heavenly heavy stuff with us ^^; hahaha… but it was a fun suffering together day :p

On Friday, I finally managed to finish what B asked.. B didn’t seem appreciative at all. Started to complain and asked for changes before even looking at it. Seems like I still need to wait quite long to detach from B.

On Saturday, I am doing housework as usual T_T Watched the national day parade from tv while eating macdonald. It was quite nice… although of course not as gigantic as the Olympic opening ceremony. Hahaha…

On Sunday.. here it is at 1 am.. and I’m typing blog. My roomie has gone back to Indonesia for holiday. Early in the morning I will go for shopping and taking convocation pictures with other friends. Then the next day will be Monday again T_T will life be different if I’m still studying now? Maybe start to mug with FYP? Hahaha… I wish everyone all the best for their new term! =)

I need a lot of luck this week,
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What this week?

All in sudden, I was given 2 project with "ASAP" deadline. One is testing project, which will take quite sometime to finish... Another one is vb coding project, which I need to learn from zero.

In that case, it seems like I will not be home before 10 for this week. I am supposed to start doing it in this weekends.. but it is really hard to push myself to work on weekend =.='

So, I'm happier after having things to do? I can't tell. Human is simply hard to be satisfied :p

Anyway, I want to open a new bank account. But I really don't know what to open... I want the high interest of DBS, great debit card privileges of UOB, and SMRT credit card from Citibank. I don't want the long queue of DBS, low interest of UOB, and the No-Nets from Citibank. I will only choose one and I'm still undecided T_T Any suggestion will be highly appreciated. hahaha...

12.30 now and I'm super sleepy as I slept less than 5 hours yesterday...

Wish everyone a great Sunday!
Erlin Diana