A Letter for You...

My dear computer,

From the time we met at Bugis, I know that you are the one. I will never forget the time you came and filled my heart ever since. I can’t believe how fast time flies. We have been going through a lot of happy and sad time together. You’re always with me whenever I need it. Everyday. Accompaning me when I have insomnia, staying with me when I need to do project overnight. You show the world to me. You introduce new things to me. A lot of times you have been going through suffering when you help me with academic projects. I remember once you were mad and don’t want to talk to me at all. I brought you to doctor, but they said nothing is wrong with you. Eventually, I surrender and stop forcing you to use Winamp. Afterwards, you started to talk happily again.

Not long ago, you have been going through power supply and motherboard disease. The doctor told me that it wasn’t recoverable, unless I changed part of you. I was so confuse deciding either to let you rest in peace or try my best to save you. I chose the latter. I’m sorry that I just love you too much.

My dear computer,

I know that I had been asking too much in these few weeks.. I know that you’ve been showing the symptom of illness. I really want to stop this suffering... but I just have no choice. Please.. don’t leave me alone again. I promise that this is the last year.. and afterwards, I will definitely clear all those troubling stuff.. and we’ll live happily ever after again…


Blue Screen of Death caused by Matlab

Please stand by me… Just for few more months.

Stress and start talking to computer,
Erlin.D

-----Update-----
Realizing that I had been leaving my computer with the same wallpaper for more than 3 years. Decided to change now.. *grin* and hence changing the theme as well to suit it *perfectionist mode on*



My theme for the past 3 years...


I like the wallpaper so much.. Thanks Boly...~

Reason behind the wallpaper selection:
1. TRC is my current favourite manga =D
2. The wing represents memories... after more than 3 years, my computer did keep alot of my memories: Photos, Video, ECA, Projects, Academic, etc etc... =D So please. Don't crash T_T
3. Dark colour is said to be better for eyes

But.. still not sure if i can get used to the new theme.. still feel weird now ~.~

Lalala... my computer gets new look~
Erlin.D

Neural, NEUral, NEURAL!!!

After so many grumbles about Crypto… it’s odd that it was eventually this particular subject that I manage to get ride first. (ok, in term of assignment, not revision) And.. like what you can predict from the title, I’m definitely in warning state for this soothing neural network!! I’m still 0%! Can you believe!? 0% with deadline in less than 2 weeks time. Millions of neurons to be trained, 20++ pages of report to be written. And I’m still 0%.

And now I’m sleepy. Would like to take a nap first before starting the neural.. gosh.. I really can’t help to keep delaying it.. why why.. T__T

Lesson learnt: It needs more than a handsome lecturer to get u started doing a project.

Aaa, got another Algo quiz somemore... +__+
Erlin.D

Terminating Gracefully…

These 2 weeks had been very long for me.. I am too exhausted to recall back the whole things.. so here is just a small summary list:
- Catching up with lesson
- Phone interview
- Meeting up with sister
- Being tour guide for brother
- Meeting for Prof Com
- FYP Demo
- Algo 4th Quiz
- Neural Presentation
- Crypto Assignment 1
- Crypto Assignment 2
- Crypto Assignment 3

I’m glad to say that now I’m ONLY left with:
- Prof Com Rehearsal
- Credit Suisse Aptitude Test
- Prof Com Presentation
- JP Morgan Application
- 100% Untouched Neural Assignment
- Algo 5th Quiz

This serves as reminder for myself.. hahaha.. anyway, I realized that I am really bad working under the pressure of deadlines.. The more deadlines I have, the more lazy I’m to start doing those things.. it just feels like too hard to catch up… finally feel reluctant to start.. funny hum? ^^;.. but I’m glad that I eventually passed through almost 2/3 of the whole list.. alrite, excluding studying for exam and tutorials… hahaha…

I had been extremely moody in these past two weeks... Due to the feeling of lagging behind, I lost my patience frequently.. to myself and to people surround me. I’m so sorry pals.. I know this shouldn’t be an excuse for my temperamental action… but trust me.. it’s really out of my control.. T__T..

Hmm.. ok.. this blog seems to be very gloomy.. let’s terminate it with something happy.. a picture of double Botak Jones? hahaz… Yup, I just back from high school gathering.. so glad to see them again and catch up with each other.. (read: gossiping).. It’s really hard to believe that some of our classmates are already married… even has baby now! Another is now a teacher.. some are already working.. (including Endy and Ratna)… Can’t believe how fast time pass! Thanks Fendi and Tomy to organize this gathering.. Except of me kept being bullied there, this is really a great way to end my 2 weeks of stress. Hahaha.. wish for more gathering in the coming holiday :p


Fighterz Crew @ Clementi~


A picture says a thousand words -- Double Botak Jones w Cheese - $13

Anyway, one funny story about the Botak Jones... there were 3 people ordering the botak burgers.. 2 double meat and 1 single meat. When they are delivering the 3 plates, there were confused as there were only 1 guy who hasn't got the food yet.. "How come there are 2 double meat!?" The waiter paused for 30 seconds don't know where to put the plate.. eventually i helped him to take it down to my table... huahaha.. sorry to confuse you... My portion is slightly bigger than normal ^^;.. and the even worse case for me is that.. i finished it.. while Tomy was flagging white flag after 1 1/2 of the meat.. no wonder i was kept being teased.. T__T But really.. nice stress reliever ^^

Happy Birthday, dearest daddy~
Erlin.D

And the Tarot says…

Today, we’re having Cool Guy’s b’day celebration. Rather than the usual midnight party, this was held during lunch time. And rather than the usual b’day cake cutting, we’re having ice cream scoping: Coke Float~ Haha.. Special thanks to Henny and Handy for the creative and successful event!

Happy 21st B'day, Cool Guy!

This time, I’m getting a chance to try out Tarot Card. Tarot had always been said to be accurate. The result shocked me... I’m stated to be someone reluctant to ask for help, resulting in me being an individualistic person, live in my own world, not able to communicate well and hard to grow… T__T… The first sentence is quite true.. For me, asking for help is my last magic resource I’ll use wisely for hard time. Hahaha.. Everyone has their own problem, so I shouldn’t be bothering them if I still have way to do it by myself, right? Or have I been living in the wrong perspective all these time?

On the other side, I’m happy when people asking help from me. It’s nice to know I’m still needed in some way :p Hahaz. Anyway, I noticed some people can ask for favor nicely such that we’ll help them willingly and happily. I must say that it’s a talent! Indeed, it’s a talent that every leader should have – the art of work distribution. Although I had been given the chance to practice it in these 2 years.. I must say that I didn’t have the talent… So.. Admiring those who have this character in yourselves =)

Enough saying about the miserable part of the result. As I was asking about relationship, my last card said that I’ll be a ‘good FATHER who can think to start a family now’ :S of course, they laughed as Winson read out the result. FATHER? Didn’t happy with it, I tried for the second time, asking about career. My first card start with ‘having a great MASCULINE soul in you…,” what!?!? Hellow.. what happen.. I agree that this is only a card game, but why no other people getting these cards beside me? More over, during the Truth or Dare game, I was picked to act masculine as well. Now I become to doubt about my personality :S.. huk huk huk.. T_T

Even in the online Tarot Reading, I still get the "Gentle Masculine" words :S

Ok ok.. masculine or feminine, I’ll need to start my Neural Network assignment T_T

300th Post!
Erlin.D

My short holiday @ Medan

Back to Medan, I was astonished seeing so many relatives around! And I really can’t remember whether to call them ‘aku’, ‘akim’, ‘aso’, ‘apek’ etcetc.. in the end I decided to call all as ‘aie’ and ‘acek’.. which not turn out to be a good solution.. I’m being stared by mum and dad every time I call the wrong title.. ~.~

Anyway, medan is about food :p.. my first night was satisfied with mouth watering fried rice.. my breakfast was 2 packet of chicken rice.. my lunch was cheesy bites pizza.. followed by hot buffet steamboat as dinner ^^

The next day.. which is the H day, my gown can’t fit me due to rotund stomach T__T in the end I needed to sacrify my breakfast to get the gown up. Afterwards, have a great brunch with cakes, continued with great lunch at hotel.. didn’t eat much because too busy running here and there… but lucky that at night, I did have a good dinner. Hahaha… The performance were good.. until my brother went up to stage and dedicated one song for all of us +__+ his singing talent is not better than mine. Lucky that I still have appetite to eat afterwards.. hahaha..

Bringing bouquet of roses for bride~~

The event ended at 10pm.. but most of relatives still stay until 11++.. I myself get back to room only at 12.. very tired as I woke up 4am for the make up thingy… slept soundly until 8.30 in the morning.. mum said that there was blackout the whole night.. but I didn’t realize it at all ^^;

Friday, I stayed at bro’s hotel room most of the time, relax and chat with sisters.. I was having Tabona curry for lunch.. and my dinner was supposed to be hotel’s vegetarian food.. but I begged sister to buy me a garuda nasi padang instead.. so when they are eating downstairs, I’m having fun with the fried chicken, accompanied by TV.. haha.. great dinner, of course.. So glad that I can eat it before I went back to sg :p

Saturday, nothing much anymore.. going back to sg.. which means going back to reality of my fyp, neural network assignment, crypto code breaking, algo quiz, prof comm presentation, and interview preparation.. sigh.. That’s life ~.~

Anyway, looking forward to meeting bro and sis who are coming tmrw! =D
Erlin.D

Happy Marriage, Bro!

I can’t believe how fast time passed. My only brother is eventually married! I still remember the time while we’re fighting each other and how he was being scold by mum every time I pretended to cry. Hahaha..

Putting the fighting case aside, he is definitely the best brother I can ever wish for. His continuous advices had brought me to where I’m now. Thanks so much Bro.. Now with a great woman at your side, I’m wishing you a great new life ahead!


Wen - Wie

4th October 2007, I got a new sister! ^o^
Erlin.D

Changi!

This 297th post is created in Changi =D Yup yup.. I'm now at Changi... Going back to Medan in half hour time ^^.. Special thanks to Tomy, Tatsu, Adi and Anton to accompany me in 199.. Wish that you enjoy your KFC... Sad that I just dont have time to eat along T__T.. I still have the voucher... valid until end of October. Anyone interested? =D =D

I enjoyed walking at Changi alot.. the places always very awesome.. The chocolate and candies are always so tempting... but I still manage to survive without buying anything.. muahaha.. (Medy's evil laugh?) Maybe I'm good in window shopping.. but anyway, the thought of Nasi Padang, Sate Padang, Fried Rice make me decided to save my tummy for the best :p.. I'm coming soon all.. And this time with FIT condition! not like what happen 3 months ago.. haha..

When checking my email, I just realized that today is the start of RedCross Awareness Week.. Oh gosh.. I miss it! T__T Wish that everything is a big success =)

Ok.. 6.45 now.. Shall go onboard already =) Dearest roomie.. take care.. get ready to see your roomie in round face XD


Thanks for the free internet, iConnect!

Time Remaining: 0.34,
Erlin.D

Few Words

Update on Nightmare(s):
- The Night before Cryptography discussion 9.30 in the morning
Dreamt that I wake up at 11.30. My team mates kept calling me, but since my hand phone is put to silent, I know nothing.

- The Night before the deadly monday
A funny dream.. Something like I supposed to meet Prof Yeo early in the morning, then on the day itself, I realize that I have 2 writing assignment due! I’m so rush asking people if it’s really due today.. Yes, one is due at 1pm and another one at 3pm. I have quiz at 2.30 and still need to meet Prof before. Try to make the meeting short, but somehow, I run to the wrong Prof, end up talking for 1 hour with Prof Zhang and late for meeting Prof Yeo. Being advised by Prof Yeo for not being on time.. when everything finished, it was already 11am.. so confused with the due-soon assignment.. then I woke up and felt very relief =)

--- End of my October’s nightmares ---

Haha.. After trying to blog it out, I realized that I got quite a lot of nightmares in one month ^^;.. But those dreams actually helped me to keep being thankful of what I have now.. Thanks that there are a lot of worse scenarios that I don’t need to face in reality :p

And anyway, the deadly Monday didn’t turn out to be as deadly as expected. Joyce suddenly postponed our neural network meeting, because she isn’t ready yet.. and can you imagine, I got an email from BC on Sunday, saying that they cancelled the Woman in Technology event! Can you believe it? It’s Sunday! Instead of being sad for not being able to attend the event.. I jumped out in joy.. the cancellation means that I don’t need to wear formal to school the whole day, can focus on my algo quiz, don’t need to worry about how to get there, no need to pay for taxi, no need to miss my first Crypto lecture with Woo Wing Keong, and many more.. and the best thing is that.. It’s BC saying sorry to me, not the other way round! Fufu...

Btw, WWK is really great.. After the tutorial with LPC, it’s continued with his lecture.. which is.. like I’m now being in real cryptography class instead of Math III. He is very energetic too. Everyone say that they are seeing a light of hope in the crypto class.. huahaha.. Hope that it’s not only for first day. During the first week, LPC also still using human language.

Anyway, not everything turned out to be fine also.. Our choice of neural network tutorial got cancelled.. because the chapter wont be covered in lecture.. so we need to pick an exam question instead :( so sad. I discussed with Joyce in the afternoon, and we eventually decided on one question. No one select it before. Wish that it’s not an indication that the question is tough..

I reached back hostel at almost 8.. had my dinner, chatted, then packed.. took back a lot of rubbish to medan.. hope that I wont get scolded.. haha.. Have done my internet check in as well..

Ok.. now is 11.11.. time to end up this blog…Will blog again when I’m back to SG on Saturday.. if I’m not dead yet with the assignments deadline~

Coming home~
Erlin.D