I really don’t want to abandon my blog. Not after so many years of writing.
At the same breath, this is almost 12, and if I don’t sleep before mid night, it will ruin my whole week.
All compromises taken into account, I decided to only write the important turning points I had from these last two weeks.
I didn’t blog last weekend because preparing for a presentation on Monday. The ending was good, I was happy, but I’m assuming too early that I can relax from there on.
This week, I have been rushing between projects, interviews, leadership talks, event organizing, day-to-day operations, farewells, and slightly frustrated with the fact that my Australian Visa got rejected. Need to take another trip back there in a week T_T
Next week, I’m waiting for few big things. It will mark the one year of my working life, I will change team, change office, change working hour, and unexpectedly, change department... all of them are very sudden. I think whatever other surprises that might come won’t shock me anymore.
This weekend, I have been going out more that what I have done for the past few months. Oh, and finally, I fulfilled my promise to stay at Inche’s place. Haha.. I got to watch Transformer as well, the so-hot movie right now. The movie was good, but as the time went and I realized that the weekend run out, my mind can’t help to wonder around. Suddenly all the upcoming events seems too fast and I come very unprepared.
This week will be a good time to test my adaptation skill. Wish me best of luck.
And I think this week will be the first day of work to quite some people as well :p best of luck!
ED
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Saturday, June 13, 2009
In the Mid of the Year
This has been the most exhausting month so far. Suddenly, the choice of not moving out becomes one of the best decisions made. I’m mentally exhausted, with all the anxiety towards my presentation next week. Why am I so troubled with presentation? Why on earth presentation exists at the first place! Haha (I know this is not relevant)
Talking about presentation, my last one was more than one year ago, which was my faithful FYP presentation. At that time, I’m presenting to a professor, about a project that I know with all my heart, and I’m all sweat. This time around, I’m going to present to 3 directors, about my dunno-what 6 weeks project, which will affect my future in the company. For that, I haven’t even started a slide. Just kill me already.
Anyway, I read through my last year’s post… and I envy the old me. Things were so much vibrant during University time. Have I changed? Am I becoming an ignorant? And the thing that I scared the most… is my life stagnant?
This week, despite my crazy schedule, I decided to meet up with a financial planner (a better word for insurance agent), and he walked me through some of the planning stage. I was ready to answer honestly all the questions, but his first question has already stunned me out.
“When do you want to retire?”
Not that I don’t want to answer, I just never think about it YET. It’s just too far ahead for me. For me, it sounds similar to asking a primary school student of when he/she wants to get married. In the end - don’t want to look stupid, I make up a quick answer “40”.
Come to think again about it now, it is definitely not a well-thought answer ^^; even if I can save half my salary, retiring in 40 means that I only have 18 years of saving, and can only survive until 58, taking all other variables into constant. So now I know that retiring at 40 can’t be possible if I decide to do nothing with my life. Stagnant is a big no.
Another question of “what is your dream?” almost convinces me that I have to hire a planner. I don’t know what I want exactly :( let the day slip day by day… definitely not what we have to do with our life.
Now I need to start to think about my dream. What is the perfect future am I expecting? To travel around the world? It sounds fun… but has never be my biggest desire so far. Any other nice ideas? :p
Am I too realistic to dream or a boring person with no dream :s
ED
Talking about presentation, my last one was more than one year ago, which was my faithful FYP presentation. At that time, I’m presenting to a professor, about a project that I know with all my heart, and I’m all sweat. This time around, I’m going to present to 3 directors, about my dunno-what 6 weeks project, which will affect my future in the company. For that, I haven’t even started a slide. Just kill me already.
Anyway, I read through my last year’s post… and I envy the old me. Things were so much vibrant during University time. Have I changed? Am I becoming an ignorant? And the thing that I scared the most… is my life stagnant?
This week, despite my crazy schedule, I decided to meet up with a financial planner (a better word for insurance agent), and he walked me through some of the planning stage. I was ready to answer honestly all the questions, but his first question has already stunned me out.
“When do you want to retire?”
Not that I don’t want to answer, I just never think about it YET. It’s just too far ahead for me. For me, it sounds similar to asking a primary school student of when he/she wants to get married. In the end - don’t want to look stupid, I make up a quick answer “40”.
Come to think again about it now, it is definitely not a well-thought answer ^^; even if I can save half my salary, retiring in 40 means that I only have 18 years of saving, and can only survive until 58, taking all other variables into constant. So now I know that retiring at 40 can’t be possible if I decide to do nothing with my life. Stagnant is a big no.
Another question of “what is your dream?” almost convinces me that I have to hire a planner. I don’t know what I want exactly :( let the day slip day by day… definitely not what we have to do with our life.
Now I need to start to think about my dream. What is the perfect future am I expecting? To travel around the world? It sounds fun… but has never be my biggest desire so far. Any other nice ideas? :p
Am I too realistic to dream or a boring person with no dream :s
ED
Sunday, June 07, 2009
Two Side of a Coin
Do you agree that there are always two ways to look at something?
Take an example which is close to my heart…
When people gave you more and more work…
Do you look at it as an evident of trust?
Or do you think that they are trying to throw their responsibility to you?
The perception matters a lot. The first will motivate and give you the sense of achievement in doing the work, while the latter will make you exhausted - physically and mentally - thinking that people has been unfair and you shouldn’t be the one to do the job in hand.
You might be happier if you’re a person with positive perception towards everything. In fact, I WAS a person with that way of thinking. My belief started to shake when I heard people pitying me and advised on how I should have the courage to say no whenever I feel overloaded.
Let’s me analyze my situation more thoroughly with few more examples.
First. I listened to my friend advice and start to think
Should I perceive myself as a person who opens up to opinion?
Or a person who has no stands and easily influence by other?
Two. When I’m given a work that’s not my expertise and I accept it
Should I treat it as a challenge and opportunity to expand myself?
Or am I just being ignorant of my own limit and greedy to accept everything?
Third. When a person is asking for assistance and I offer to help
Should I be proud of myself to be proactive?
Or am I worth laughing as I’m throwing arrow to myself?
Fourth. When I am not outspoken but making conscious effort to talk more
Should I be happy of myself that I keep trying to improve?
Or am I just being silly trying to break and change my own personality?
Fifth. When I struggling but surviving my work
Should I feel that it’s normal and I am adapting to my new comfort zone?
Or am I just don’t have the courage to get out and start fresh?
The list can go on and on. But basically, I just don’t know how to evaluate myself. Even when I decided to think positively about myself, I’m wondering if I AM actually in a self denial mode and just try to justify my actions with all the excuses. Oh gosh T____T
What is the name of this weird disease of mine?
Should I call it a well self-awareness?
Or is this what we known as the feeling of insecurity?
Irregardless, I know I am happy to meet up with my high school classmate this weekend :D
@ Indo Padang, The Cathay
…Or am I just trying to convince myself that I have spent my weekend meaningfully? Hahaha! This one is a bit too much =.=''
In a vicious cycle,
ED
Take an example which is close to my heart…
When people gave you more and more work…
Do you look at it as an evident of trust?
Or do you think that they are trying to throw their responsibility to you?
The perception matters a lot. The first will motivate and give you the sense of achievement in doing the work, while the latter will make you exhausted - physically and mentally - thinking that people has been unfair and you shouldn’t be the one to do the job in hand.
You might be happier if you’re a person with positive perception towards everything. In fact, I WAS a person with that way of thinking. My belief started to shake when I heard people pitying me and advised on how I should have the courage to say no whenever I feel overloaded.
Let’s me analyze my situation more thoroughly with few more examples.
First. I listened to my friend advice and start to think
Should I perceive myself as a person who opens up to opinion?
Or a person who has no stands and easily influence by other?
Two. When I’m given a work that’s not my expertise and I accept it
Should I treat it as a challenge and opportunity to expand myself?
Or am I just being ignorant of my own limit and greedy to accept everything?
Third. When a person is asking for assistance and I offer to help
Should I be proud of myself to be proactive?
Or am I worth laughing as I’m throwing arrow to myself?
Fourth. When I am not outspoken but making conscious effort to talk more
Should I be happy of myself that I keep trying to improve?
Or am I just being silly trying to break and change my own personality?
Fifth. When I struggling but surviving my work
Should I feel that it’s normal and I am adapting to my new comfort zone?
Or am I just don’t have the courage to get out and start fresh?
The list can go on and on. But basically, I just don’t know how to evaluate myself. Even when I decided to think positively about myself, I’m wondering if I AM actually in a self denial mode and just try to justify my actions with all the excuses. Oh gosh T____T
What is the name of this weird disease of mine?
Should I call it a well self-awareness?
Or is this what we known as the feeling of insecurity?
Irregardless, I know I am happy to meet up with my high school classmate this weekend :D
@ Indo Padang, The Cathay
…Or am I just trying to convince myself that I have spent my weekend meaningfully? Hahaha! This one is a bit too much =.=''
In a vicious cycle,
ED
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